BUNCH O’ STOFF

BLAH BLAH BLAH

BUNCH O’ STUFF THAT HAPPENED

BLAH BLAH BLAH.

No, I’m not dead, but I’m not going into the last week that I’ve been gone because there’s just too much.  I’ll just say this instead:  I am not ready to go home.  Okay, that’s not true, I am ready but I don’t really want to.  Here where I am in China feels like it’s isolated away from the rest of the world.  I’m stuck here.  Here in this place where time stops and everything is frozen.  I feel like I’ve gone back in time, watching the world like I used to, doing the things that I used to.  Sure, there are differences, but they aren’t striking enough for me to go “Oh, holy crap when did that get there?!”  Everything still FEELS the same even with all the things that are different and the people – well they aren’t even a bit different.

Unfortunately things aren’t frozen in time.  While I’m here, visiting a timeless town, the rest of the world is moving.  I have to think about college, about tuition, about deadlines that are fast approaching, about lives and people that I need to tend to.  I’m not frozen in time.  I just keep thinking I am.  Pushing the things that I need to do to the farthest corners of my mind because I don’t want to think about them.  I want to be frozen here for just a little longer.

Everything else, well, I’ll worry about that in 4 or 5 days.  For now, I’m just going to keep pretending that nothing can touch me while I’m away.